thoughts on a new year

It is early evening. I am sitting in our new home in a quiet kitchen waiting to meet friends at Kids' Eat Free Night at Moe's. Cade is playing Wii. Syd is coloring. And, Charlie is down for a nap...for a few more minutes anyway. I have been thinking about the new year - wow, 2010. Every year about this time, we talk about resolutions to make, goals to set, trips to plan. I don't think I made it out of January for some of my lofty ideas last year. Were my goals set to high? No. Were my resolutions too demanding? No. Life just happens. We get busy and preoccupied. I used to be so hard on myself when a plan didn't turn out just right, when I did not complete a task. Now, I am learning to flow with it. Please do not get me wrong. I am still setting some goals and praying on some things that need to change in my life, my heart, and my family. Just to name a few: I need to spend more time in Bible study. I need to organize my daily activities for better efficiency. I need to devote more of myself to my sweet hubby. I need to get in bed earlier at night. But, overall, I need to enjoy every day, every moment and realize that in light of eternity so much that consumes my thoughts is useless. This past year has shown to me more than any other in my life just how fleeting time is passing me by. (My oldest is in kindergarten, for goodness sakes. I have been married almost 11 years.) I spend way too much of my time doing rather than being. One of my favorite blogs to read (Lots of Scotts) said it best just the other day...she said "maybe she had become a human 'doing' rather than a human 'being'." I have always been a Martha rather than a Mary. I am a doer. So, I have written on my bathroom mirror (which cracked C and S up) to LIVE IN THE DAY! ENJOY EACH ONE! Scripture tells me to "be joyful always, pray continually." I plan on doing just that. My 2010 goal/resolution is to BE here...to BE here...I don't have to have beds made, dishes washed, and two veggies on the dinner plate. My children will not remember that they wore dirty jeans to school. They will remember me playing UNO with them. They will remember our talks about Bible verses. They will remember their mommy snuggling with them to watch a movie in my bed or coloring a picture or jumping on the trampoline. So, if you come to my house in 2010, I hope you find some dust and maybe the garbage not taken out. I hope you find me reading a good book with a couple of cutie pie kiddos...those are my thoughts about the new year.